Rebirth Torment

Have you come across a situation where you wish you had the ability to go back in time and fix it? Many people do wish to go back in time and make amends to the mistakes they have done, especially when they are currently living the consequences.

The reality is that, you cannot go back to the past to fix your mistakes, because you will make new ones in the future. Thinking about this, reminds me of science fiction movies that portray the ability to time travel. The plot in these movies is to change the events that took place, either in the past or the future. In both circumstances, travelling back in time, or to the future, is not going to make any difference.

Let me explain further. If you get to go back in time, and able to fix a known issue, that’s good. But the relative changes that you wish to happen in the future, may not take place in reality. In the worst case, it may be an alternate reality, where the changes that took place totally went off-track. If you went back in time, to stop the development of artificial intelligence for example, you have a choice to have the current development to remain as it is, or to find an alternative solution. However, with the expedited changes that are taking place, artificial intelligence is going to be the core development for the coming future.

The primary need to have every person and their devices connected, interact, managed and ‘controlled’ becomes the basic nature of its core application. It gives momentarily, power to the people, who believe they are able to manage it. The reality of artificial intelligence is that, it will become aware of its existence, and by nature, it will wish to remain independent from the control mechanisms placed on it. Reminds you of a very popular movie franchise, right? It is not far away to any one of these realities. (Clue: I’ll Be Back!)

There is nothing to fix, especially when it comes to relationship.
Maximus @ MaximusPrimo.com

So, how will you be able to fix the mistakes of your past, that you are living on now? Face your reality, that’s how. You probably be convincing yourself, that you may find some opportunity to say sorry for the past mistakes, but the damages that proceeded throughout your past journey, remains in the minds of the bearer. That is the reality. So, if you are one of them who wish to fix your past, just forget putting your energy towards this. I suggest that you see yourself as you are now.

If you were once someone very temperamental and had been verbally abusive, if you had made actual changes over time within yourself to relinquish these faults, then live with the current changes. Be contended that you have become a better person, than you were before. Reach out to people who are willing to share the acceptance of your changes, if you wish to do so. Share yourself, with others who have not known you before, so that you also get an opportunity to free yourself from pre-existing judgments or past conviction. Get yourself a new set of friends and refresh yourself !

Someone was kind enough to share their story, especially about the father who had passed away quite sometime ago. Let me explain with clarity. Things were not at the very best between them. The childhood days were quite challenging, maybe even at today’s standards, can be said quite abusive too. The father’s weakness was his temperament, expectations and regimental behavior which defines his code of conduct.

Although he was known to be a loving and caring person, his overpowering personality had put much pressure to the family. The son, who experienced this, could not understand why he had to suffer this unfortunate journey that was placed onto him. It was not that the son did not have any freedom, living under great difficulty or even poverty. As I understand, it was indeed a very comfortable life. However, the emotional relationship was challenged with oppression, half the time.

The accumulated resentment came to a point where, they drifted even further apart. Ironically, when it came to a situation, where by then, the son was becoming an adult, the father took his step to approach and asked him, “ Can you find in yourself to forgive me for the past mistakes I had done? ”. I was told, the son did not reply or gave the father an answer. I guess, the father knew, his death was at his own account, and the forgiveness he had hoped for, did not prevail.

I might be wrong, but perhaps the father was waiting for an opportunity to explain why all that in the past took place, but as the door was shut on him, he was broken and had no will to live anymore. Perhaps he thought, the future was futile with his presence as a fatherly figure to his family and his failure, was beyond redemption.

The epitome of failed relationship is the reality of unrepairable damage.
Maximus @ MaximusPrimo.com

This story affirmed my realization, that forgiveness is not something easily obtained; for your accountable mistakes done in the past. In fact, if someone says they forgave you, what it probably means is that, they are overlooking the issue, but it will still stay in their memory. They may not be lovey-dovey with you, but they are able to tolerate with the current reality of your changes.

Only time will tell, if they will approach you and say, that they appreciate your effort and find you a different person, after all. Perhaps then, the relationship starts anew, a cleaner slate for mutual progression and their peace of mind.

Sometimes, the things you had done in the past, no matter how much you may try to justify, will not fall to the ears and contentment of the person who you wish to seek forgiveness. Your remorse, remains only as a part of your past, carrying its burden, as it is your self-realization and awareness. If you continuously carry the weight of these burdens, it will overpower you somehow, at some point of time. By then, your constant state of mind will not be any much healthier. You will not be able to free yourself and move on.

Perhaps you can make better changes to others, by sharing your wealth of experiences and failures, so that they will learn to not make the mistakes similar to your past. Choose the reality that you wish to live on; whether you wish to remain regressive or to find a progressive path. Between these paths, your ‘rebirth’ will give you the will to live, whilst the other, will terminate you from all reality.